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44 years old Houston, Texas, United States

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Blog Created: Wednesday, May 25, 2011 6:55:07 PM
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I would be cured tomorrow. Here’ why not.

Ya’ll had heard much since my last stay in the hospital. That’s because I spent the following week having fluids pumped into me. I am103 pounds and dehydrated no matter what we do. They worry, I kinda like it. Meh.

So then the following week for was me to rest before the big final massive bombardment where they would have put rods in me to blow up the last of this cancer. So during the week of panic I made sure to keep cleansing out my butt bc the final day before I’d have to drink the god awful ass exploder.

The moment of drinking the cherry tasting stuff made my day a living hell. I managed to get it all down – when whooooosh it was back!! We called my nurse and she told us to do it again. ARG! I passed for a bit from throwing up and Will got more stuff. I reread the instructions and it was okay to do it in segments…so I tried a new approach…

I took five of my stash of cherry lifesavers [yum], the yuck stuff and then a less than normally sweetened cherry koolaid.
First eat the candy and let it really coat your mouth.
Second slam a quarter of yuck.
Chase with equal amount of koolaid.
TAKE YOUR TIME
My first half stayed down
I waited and repeated too soon or something
Thus the loss of the second half of the dose.

This is so much tmi but I have been really lonely. I am beyond bathroom dependant and have moved on to diapers for peeing issues. Anyhow that brings me to what has held up the big ending. We get there at 6 am and I have had a hell night. Some of those meds got through but I was worried not enough. I’d been off my pain pills since midnight, nor had I had my anxiety drug. Luckily the anthesiaologist [sp?] was standing there. We’d met before and it did not go well. No fight this time; he told her to iv me with my pain meds, my nausea meds and my favorite steroid – decadron. WHOLY SHIT WAS IT PERFECT.

I got to see the kids and Will for a while. They met my nice nurse. Dr. Kim my kidney doctor happened to be up there too so introduced him to the kids. He answered a question I had about him removing my stint. Everything seemed to be going great….

Until I woke up in observation without the feeling anything had been done. Turns out nothing could be. Seems one of the spots must to through has some kind of ‘ulcer’ blocking the way. I’ve been sent back to ben taub to begin the process of formulating a plan to get rid of that or something. My appointment isn’t until next Monday.

So still don’t expect to see me about and about anytime soon. And if you still would like to help out, what we need now is money. All the pills are not covered by medicaide and Will’s had to take lots of time off to take care of me. I need help, if possible. Write me privately if you can. This is breaking my heart to have to put out here for everyone too, but the first thing radiation kills is the pride, Lv M

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